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Name: Kaitlyn
Birthday: 3/15/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I love Ice Java milk, Daisy's and Tulips, anything lavender, shoes, Bible study at Chad and Paul's, spending time at the lake, reading a good book, laughing, puppies, painting my nails, Scooby Doo monopoly, sweet tea, driving go-karts, watching movies with my family, singin in the car, THRP, slip-n-slides, sand volleyball, pop-sicles, Evan & Jaron, sunshine when I wake up, My Dog Skip, Garris and Serena, bicycle rides, baby ducks, taking trips, writing, snow globes....
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  KtLou2cute4u
Member Since:
3/6/2004
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| moments get muffled in the business and complexities of my day, moments when i should be whispering an inner thank you for the blessings i am given. i realize how selfish i have become as the schedules and committments so present in my life have distracted me from that which means most. loyaltly and love. for in all that we are faced with in life, is it not loyaly and love that withstand through it all? i stopped today. i took a moment and i paused to think about every thought presently jumbled inside of me. As i sorted out each thought, one by one, defeat overwhelmed me, for i realized nothing had significant relevence; Yet, these 'worries' these worries of little importance were the very things keeping me from the happieness i have been missing. life passes by so quickly and as each fleeting moment dissapears i wonder what significance i have made of all i have been given, i fear i have taken for granted the things i cherish most, and as i run this race of meaninglessness, trying to find fulfillment in my own abilites i am brought to a place of despair as i am humbled by the foolishness i have been walking by. i have allowed the foundation of the very relationship i once stood so strongly upon to crumble beneath me, as i have forgotten the basic understanding of all that i revolve around. i have been looking at myself under the microscope of selfcritisism forgetting the grace which so magnificently ecompasses me when i accept it with an open heart, knowing i will never be worthy, and as i have forgotten this truth, as i have tried to 'fix myself' i have caused many to suffer unknowingly, for my self critism is at times contagious, and spreads like a murderous flame in a dry forest. the only peace i can ever grasp is the knowledge that i will never be worthy, yet i am loved, and having been given the ability to love others, i am foolish when i do so halfheartedly because of this constant self evaluation i have upon myself. when i am in a state of turmoil it is during the times i try to gain worthiness through nonsense actions, seemingly labeled as good. i stopped today. i took a moment and i paused, and in the quiet, in the tranquility of the blessed instance, i was reminded of all i had let slip past me. i am trying to find answers for my relationships, school, the big questions in life, but the problem is that i have again attempted to take control, when the only answer is a sacrifice of handing it all over to him, praying for his guidance, and saying, i am not worthy, but he loves me...and fighting in each circumstance for all that I believe in, LOVE and LOYALTY...he will truly take care of the rest. | | |
| I'm in college now...WHOA...it's been almost a month. And I have nothing else to say. | | |
| So, I kind of quit Xanga. Dustin was kind enough to post for me last time. I figured I'd attempt it though because I'm pretty bored. Hmmm...yeah, nevermind, this is more boring than being bored. I quit again, sorry. | | |
| Hey guys!
I hate Xanga!  But I looooove Park! | | |
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